Friday, October 21, 2005

One Good day comes after 7 bad days

That's the statement of my master HEIKO

Actually, it seems weird, because we can get the bad ones more than the good ones. But in other sense, it will make us more tough than we think.

Today 21st October 2005, maybe the worst day of my life.
1. I loose my place (read: apartment), and I've time less than 10 days to find the new one. Because he informed me today afternoon. And the worst is today is OCTOBER, the new students have just coming and take all the places.
2. I almost miss jummah praying in Ramadhan
3. I have disagreement with my supervisor
4. My research is getting more complicated than we (I and my supervisors) think before. And I have short period to solve it.
5. My supervisor from Toronto will coming in Monday. And the problems are still problem and not become the result.
6. Opera haven't paid back my down-payment for the previous apartment

But anyway, as my motto: "Always seeing the condition in good shape"
There are several good things today:
1. I have many friends in Trento that really friend. All of them are aware and help me to deal with the first problem. Thanks guys.
2. I get temporary for living, in case I couldn't find the place. Thanks for the guys in the next door (read: the door of University). Michelle, Morshed, Robert and Tariq.

Anything else.. I think no.. :(
anyway at least, I have one ups, there is we'll go for small climbing in Sunday (thx for Heiko).

hihihi Thanks God.. :P
Wish me luck

Monday, October 17, 2005


Today... reading a bunch of article about that notion.
mmmm, I think almost everything in the world is uncertain.
Maybe only died is certain.

The main reason of the uncertainty: ignorance and risk (unpredict event)

Uncertain in: passing the exams, having nice position at workplace, having nice spouse... all of them are fulfill the reson for become uncertainty.

But how about with DIED?
I dont' know (ignorant) how and what is the dead..instead of we don't breath anymore ;p
and this one is we can't predice when this event is occured.
But why it could be categorize as a certain event??
Or maybe we should change something??

Hihihi I don't have anything to do now.. and start getting bored.. :P
That's why there is this text

am I miss something??

I heard if .....
I speak if .....
I do if .....
I recieve the consequece if .....

Learn how to become a good listener before you try to be good speaker.
Try to deal with the consequence before you do something.
Thinking before speaking or acting is good.
The question how deep we should thinking?

Thinking and then Acting
Thinking thinking...... thinking.. considering... discussion.. [when we will act]

People told that I can take the decision in short period. Maybe because I don't think carefully.. :(
Now, in the work I do exploring reading.. contemplating... and afraid to take the position... ohhh my GOD.. what's going on.. with me

Am I loose something....

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

2nd week of Ramadhan

This is the first time, I'm starting the fasting months outside my lovely country.
Actually, last year I did the last week of Ramadhan in Trento... My Lovely City.

A lot of people... just wondered why I can survive without drinking and eating almost 14 hours.. hihihihi.
And simple answer: "If you believe something, you will do everything beyond your mind or maybe your ability"

And other question, "What do you expect from the God, for doing this (read: fasting)?"
simple answer: "I don't want anything more, the God has already given anything that I want"

Next Question, "So? what is your motif for doing this?"
answer: "Because It is obligatory as a muslim, and I believe about Islam"

Sometimes, I feel lucky because I believe about the existence of God.
and I know about Islam (thanks mom, you have pushed me a lot to know it)

I'll try to become better.
But now... I'm still far from the good muslim criteria.

Sometimes we should believe something, without understanding where it comes from. It is the same when we believe about the Axioms, there is no explanation why it should be like that. But and then we can derive "Huge and Great" Theorem based on those axioms.