Why....

Once I have a feeling .....I failed to proceed it.
I have lost it in the last 2-3 years...
and now I have it... happy and feel relieve.

Actually, I've know she doesn't has the same feeling towards me, but I still go forward.
.....
finally, Last night she speaks up and wants someting for me...
She wants me to end it....

SO... I WILL DO IT
because she wants and because of me
fiuh... back to the phase 8 months ago, close the feeling and life as YUDIS in the last 2 years

hihihihi That's a life